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Ayahuasca: How it has changed my life (A brief, personal update)

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Nicolas Canon

September 30, 2022

This is a brief blog to say thank you to all of you that have been watching our videos so far, we are close to 400 subscribers and i’m very happy for your support!

I also wanted to share why we have not been posting content lately – It was because I was traveling between Colombia and Canada, taking care of a lot of responsibilities one of which i want to share with you!

Recently, I got married to a beautiful, beautiful woman whom i deeply love and adore, we’re working on visa permits because she’s from Russia and i’m Colombian, I live a big part of my year in Canada so i was filling paperwork and taking care of daily things, now i’m back.

Now, I want to thank you for your support and also take this as a chance to share with you that being married has been in a massive, massive extent thanks to the work with plant medicine.

Because the mind that I used to be before I started this journey, first I’ll call it matricide and I’ll make a joke saying “Why would I make one woman miserable? when i can make so many of them happy.” that was my way of dismissing any invitation towards deeper commitment.

I used to be the kind of person that was very promiscuous and took things very lightly in a way that lacked consciousness and to the detriment of my health in many situations, I was allowed to become a better man in many, many ways.

To forgive myself, forgive and let go of my past lovers, forgive my mother for the trauma that I carried from childhood, so many things that allowed me to meet my partner and be in a relationship with her.

Many more things came up; being controlling, jealous, insecure, judgmental all the power games that in our disconnection we play with each other.

Fortunately she also shares this path with me and Ayahuasca taught the two of us to have more compassion, to love free of conditions, to understand, to take care of our mental and emotional health before we try to demand that others take care of it for us.

Finally, in one of my ceremonies at the middle of the year i saw very clearly the beauty and what felt like the approval/invitation of the medicine for me to embrace a deeper commitment.

I’m very happy that I heard that calling and that I proposed to my partner, the reason i’m sharing this with you is because a couple of years ago what my life looks like today was very, very different.

From; drugs, alcohol, doing things without love, being disconnected from my family, carrying resentments towards.

Now, taking the first steps to create my own family feeling happy and healthy with who I am, doing work that I enjoy and above all feeling that i’m on the right path.

Feeling that I am everyday discovering my potential, and every day having clear and more pure eyes to appreciate everything that life has given me and keeps giving me.

If you’re on the fence around drinking plant medicine, well, there’s many videos I have made for you to maybe change your mind but I speak for myself when I say that it has it taught me how to appreciate life.

How to appreciate my life and take care of it, because we only take care of those things that we appreciate, I learned to fall in love with myself, which had then allowed me to love somebody else properly.

Now, to feel that i’m living a romantic fairy tale and sure, there’s challenges, there’s tension, there’s conflict but there’s something bigger that keeps us together.

That is a spiritual journey that is shared and the clarity of a heart that acts from a place of consciousness.

I think this and much more is available to us when we decide to listen to our heart, to listen to that calling and it can be plant medicine, it can be meditation, it can be passed, and it can be just changing your diet, working out, whatever it is your body is inviting you to do.

Whatever it is your heart takes for you to do, take one step today, because you don’t know what’s going to happen, you don’t know how much, how fast, drastically and how beautiful life can change.

There’s only one way to know and that is trying – If you have a partner and things are rocky, also drinking medicine together it’s an amazing opportunity to get clear on whether a relationship is for you or not and if it is to understand what gets in the way and clear up your act, your nonsense and learn to love yourself/him/her fully!

If you feel the calling to sit with Ayahuasca, in a container held by Colombian shamans at a sacred temple in the middle of the mountain forests, please check: www.ayahuascacolombia.com/retreats